"Like I'm Gonna Lose You"

Can't stop having this song in my mind throughout the night of insomnia while having the shift transition from afternoon shift to morning shift on the next day which is today.

Had this song playing in my mind is somewhat due to the romantic-ness of the lyrics which reminding me once again that life is fragile. We will never know what will happen the next minute.

SO live life to the fullest with the joy of the Lord and enjoy the song!

Watch it here : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-MBfn8XjIU

I found myself dreaming
In silver and gold
Like a scene from a movie
That every broken heart knows we were walking on moonlight
And you pulled me close
Split second and you disappeared and then I was all alone

I woke up in tears
With you by my side
A breath of relief
And I realized
No, we're not promised tomorrow

So I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when
When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

[John Legend:]
In the blink of an eye
Just a whisper of smoke
You could lose everything
The truth is you never know

So I'll kiss you longer baby
Any chance that I get
I'll make the most of the minutes and love with no regrets

Let's take our time
To say what we want
Use what we got
Before it's all gone
'Cause no, we're not promised tomorrow

[Both:]
So I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when
When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

Hey
Whoa

I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when
When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

Lyrics adapted from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/meghantrainor/likeimgoingtoloseyou.html

Over a cuppa Milo

Here am I wondering why must the same issues of life attacking over and over again?
Have I not prayed enough?
Am I lack of determination?
When will these issues stop hunting me?

I shall keep my desires flowing til the day I'm out of this country and stop all these nonsense.

By the way, I had my hand check up on my wrist last week on the 17th instead of 14th as planned. Nevermind with the changed of dates as it was still within the recovery period. The doctor was happy with my recovery as I have been seriously wearing my wrist brace in whatever I do, especially when I have to buckle up my bra, which I can't do it at all without wearing my wrist brace.
Next up will be another check up 2 weeks later and then physio! Can't wait to get back to my normal self!

What have I done in 2013?

Awake at 0420hrs. Sneezing. Sore throat. Glad that this is the first horrible sore throat of the year. Not well. Can't take mc. No staffs. Too many patients. I'm not dying, so no mc for me. Must work. Yay.

Now that I finished my breakfast, had soft boiled egg with 1 piece of wholemeal bread, looking at the clock tik-tok-ing, my mind triggered me to post something here.

It has been a smooth year besides extra hospital visits with my sister and all of the hiccups in my department since Hari Raya in August.

Aiming to achieve 2 more goals before the year ends.
-Secure a medical insurance plan
-Register for my degree course.

Next question would be when am I gonna be able to really submit myself in what I am called to do?

1st post on 1st Sunday of 2013

1 week has passed.
Let's have a lil recap on what I've done in the past 1st week of 2013..

1/1 - I went for the 1st jogging of the year with beloved bestie in the morning!! *Proud* =p
- Packed the famous Chicken Rice + Char Siew + Siew Yuk for lunch with the special one before my noon shift. Was quite furious to know that this PH on 1st Jan is not a mandatory payment day which means I won't get the PH bonus pay but a replacement holiday (RH) later on... I figured I MUST at least go for NYE countdown on 31/12 (before I get older, though I used to sepnd NYE at Bukit Bintang with family when I was in secondary school) and enjoy off of New Year day =)

2/1 - On noon shift... 1st thing I heard from my 'sifu' after greeting her Happy New Year was 'do u know the 28yrs old Ms Goh passed away this morning at 0400hrs at your department??' Thoughts ran in my mind was, 'man, not deaths again on the 1st week on the new year?? it has been happening since the 1st year I stepped into my nursing journey where patients who are close friends pass away..'
- Went to pay my last respect to her at Nirvana Memorial Park at Sg Besi after my noon shift with the 'sifu'.

3/1 - Had my first morning shift of the year after not having it for at least 2 weeks before Christmas.
- Finally watched Life of Pi at night.

4/1 -Working noon shift again...
- Then started on working as an editor for a dear friend's thesis. I finally understand why people tend to be so stressed up during their finals, especially when they had to work on a thesis.

5/1 - Off day for the week! Tried out this awesome Malaysian French baker @Tommy Le Baker...
Details here : http://www.facebook.com/TommyLeBaker
And today... here am I typing away on my 1st working Sunday...
- Went to church this morning
- Had lunch with #w11cg
- Work - currently on noon shift -> 5 minutes CPR done on the PR with autonomic dysreflexia at 1630hrs.
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What's my NYE???It has been more or less the same every year...such as... loving God more, spend more time with family, be a better person, earn more, work harder, travel to more places, save more and bla bla bla... But Ps Kevin has reminded me something important in service this morning : 2013 is gonna be all about FOCUS! =)

Besides thinking hard on this particular matter : To wear braces was a must last year... should I start studying again this year? Guess I should before I get older...

Yours sincerely,

Pic taken with Nokia Lumia 900 at Strait Quay, Penang on 19/11/12
One of my fave pic of the year =)

Have a great great 2013 peeps!
The best is yet to come! Hope for the best!
xoxo

Scary near miss experience!

I almost died, literally. Not exaggerating but literally the tree and branches almost, almost fell on me!  

I was on my way home from my monthly orthodontic follow up and was at Sunway Cheras at about 2.40pm on 6th Nov 2011.

I was stopped behind a car who was trying to turn right down to the terrace houses area and the tree fell reight after the car in front of me left! These bunches were blown down right in front of me! Thank God it didn't fell on my car and didn't hit anyone!!!

I watched it dropped... I mean watched it fell, I was really freaked out!! Kept chanting - please don't fall on my car, please dont fall on my car, please dont fall on my car'! I have to admit that I didn't remember to pray but I did remember to thank God with a H-U-G-E grateful heart that NOTHING fell on my car except the few leaves which u are seeing in the picture.

I had palpitation which lasted for about 15minutes, legs shivered a while before I realize that I should reverse my car. The only thing which came into my mind is to call dad to ask for alternative way to home.. So then I reversed, parked my car aside, and called my dad... I decided not to call mum as it might freak her out even more... So I told dad that I was on my way home and this happened. Told him that the trees DID NOT fell onto my car BUT he repeatedly asked whether did the trees fell on me! Then he directed me to use the back road at Hulu Langat to get back to my place... it's a route which I'm aware but i just couldn't recall it at that particular moment.

I snapped the picture after I hung up the phone call with dad. Made an u-turn and left... feeling bad that I chose not to help those guys to remove the trees. I could only pray that God will protect

those who are moving the trees away.

I seriously dislikes the aftermath of a tradegy! The emotions will definitely enter into the rollercoaster mode... I have to really think through what if the trees really fell on me? Who should I call first? Ambulance? Parents? Fire Brigade or Police???

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Nauseated

Yes, it was last night.
Thanks to the mushroom fried rice that I had at the nearest Malay hawker stall.
I shouldn't have take all of the mushrooms since i actually noticed that they were not fully cooked in the first place. Or not cooked at all?? Not too sure bout it tho.

Felt terribly nauseated and the feeling of wanting to vomit was so super bad.
And I was still able to sms Mum, Bestie and my best sms companion.
No vomitus seen but lots of saliva-like fluids came out.

Dozed off at 10 ish.

p/s : nauseated is a 'legal' word. can be found in dictionary.com XD

Am I revived?

I tend to feel that I have lots of problems and challenges to face in life and I have this feeling almost all the time. Though I'm not afraid of it for I know that I have the Lord with me but yet, I'm still worried. Too worried at times till I'll easily break down and often drown myself in my own world thinking that no one cares for me and it had caused me to keep quiet all the time whenever I'm with my friends. I prefer to be quiet also because I don't have any topic to talk to them. It sometimes makes me feel like I'm lost and I'm losing my mind in a way. Not exactly up to the level of being insane of course, but a strong feeling of waves of painful reality which I've seen and had striked me in its very own way and causes me to compete with all of the struggles and negative thoughts and emotions in me in order to make sure that I'm on the right path.

Sometimes I hope that I know how to express the feelings which are buried deep down inside me. I'm still the same old me who's battling with my mind to renew myself each day and to reflect more of Christ in me by living with His words in the everyday life. But sad to say that I've been such a vain. I hate my life at times, I get pissed at things easily, I dislike being surrounded by non believers, and I complain about almost everything in life. What a shame of me.

But one thing in life which I appreciate the most, is that I know I'm falling deeper and deeper in love with Jesus which I've never experienced before. It felt so so so real and so encouraging. And I am really thankful to have Him in life. Because it is only Jesus who will be faithful to me. And because of Jesus, I can still be well alive and to do so many things, and to be in the presence of the Holy Spirit and ask for His forgiveness.

Glory be unto Him!