My heart and mind is in Singapore now.....

.....because I can't wait to go for Asia Conference!
It's a Christian Conference organized by City Harvest Church Singapore and it is held every 2 years.
Details here *Asia Conference*
I missed the 1st one in 2007 as it was held during my finals. Even this year, it is during my finals too but praise God, I can still attend it on the weekends.

My exam has officially ended minutes ago.
Had OSCE = Objective Structured Clinical Examination today.
I have to admit that I was really nervous every time I sit for my OSCE because the lecturers are super strict on their markings and we have to be very careful on the procedure's steps. What we learn in class and what we practice in the hospital is often different and it always cause confusion when it comes to exam. Anyways, I did my part and I did my best. I believe that I won't fail any of them. *fingers crossed*

The whole month of MAY seemed to be quite tragical for me. It felt like I was put into a major test, a test on my patience and my feelings. I don't feel good almost the 1st half of the month until I have to really deal with my feelings to settle my mind and focus on my exams.
Part of the biggest event that happened was there were 2 guys going after me at the same time and 3rd one came after I decided to be just be friends with the all of them. To me, it felt really scary when things like that happened.

I wrote this in xanga few days back

After all of the chit chat sessions I had with my darling besties, I realised that I don't have the ability to love and care for a BGR anymore.
It is true.
And I had enough of it.
I need a longer break.

That's how I feel right now and I am NOT in a hurry to get into a relationship.
I guess I made myself clear enough.
Or perhaps the guys just couldn't gain my trust and confidence or failed to lure my heart? hahas.
Enough of stories bout guys. Enough of heartbreaks.

Let's see what's coming up next.
27 May -> 30 May - Singapore XDXD
8 June -> Birthday XDXDXD
31 May -> 20 June - Practical in SDMC
21 June -> 4 July - Semester break! XD
5th July -> Semester 6! I smell graduation =D

Exam is over, in a way

It's over in a way because I still have my practical exam on Wednesday.
So basically it's like exam has ended.
I only need to be worried on procedures which I've never done before like catherization only I guess? *sigh*

I've finished reading New Moon in 2 hours time.
It was so exciting til I have the adrenaline rush to finish up the book ASAP. Hahas.
A bit exaggerating i know.

On the other hand, remember I wrote about *A dear friend (Sam) bout a month ago?
I still do not have the guts to call her because I've heard from another friend, Rachel, who were part of us, told me that Sam doesn't want to hear anything about me whenever Rachel mentions bout me and she'll cut Rachel off whenever Rachel mentions me.
I know there were some unerasable misunderstandings along the way but those things were not a problem when we were still together. Why can't she forget about them now since it's all over? I do wished that we'll bum into each other at our favourite shopping mall like how we always did.
I've tried my best to mend things.

It got me thinking, if someone chooses to walk out frm your life, what can u do?
And my answer to that question is let them go and face the fact.
Because I might not have the ability to make them stay, eventhough I DO NOT wish to face any of this anymore.

Ian once asked, What kind of relationships are we building with one another everyday?
I would say that I will want to build sincere lasting relationships with one another.

I hope that I'll have the guts to call her up someday. Also, hoping that the numbers that I have are valid. And, another crazy thing came across my mind, maybe I'll drive to her house someday according to the address she gave me back in F6 days? I know her parents and sister are still staying there.

No, I'm not sad, not emo.
Just that I truly treasure people around me who are dear to me.
There's lots more of other things for me to look forward to.
I'm more than excited for Christmas and I always will.

This is Xmas at home =D

Out of boringness

I slept a lot today.
1st round, 10am to 12.30pm
Then, 3.45pm to 5.30pm
Haven't been so piggie for really long!
Maybe it was due to the horrible sleeping disorders from Sunday.

I've finished reading for tomorrow's paper.
It's the last paper tomorrow.
I don't know what else to read anymore.
Will have to do final read ups before I enter the hall tomorrow tho.

My new toy
I bought this from 100yen last Monday.

Isn't it cuteeeee???

Can't wait for Thursday already!